Update: Follow-up doc appointment

I had my follow-up/post-surgery check today.  

All is healing wonderfully.  

Doc was a little concerned that I am a week late for my monthly visitor and told me to take a pregnancy test at home to make sure one way or another.  I am not concerned (well, maybe just a little).  

I did not foresee that my first pee-on-a-stick adventure would be so soon.  

I have conflicting emotions right now.  On one hand--this is exactly what I wanted--a BFP (big fat positive).  But on the other hand--it is so soon, I am only 2 weeks (tomorrow) post-op, and I did not have my heart prepared for the results whether positive or negative.

Other than my adventure peeing on sticks in the morning, all is going well.  Will start actively trying to conceive soon, unless my test in the morning negates that need.

****UPDATE****

Well, no need for a test now.  Monthly visitor showed up a week late today.  

My Reversal Story: Home at last

Well, we made it home finally.  

We had a horrible trip home.  The people at DFW are retards and that is all I am saying.  I came home in a lot of pain.  More than I was in the day of surgery.  Still not feeling all that hot.

I am healing good.  I have parts of my incision that are healed up, parts are still scabbed up.  

Good news is, my libido is back.  Bad news is, I still have over a week before I can do anything about it.  My desire is back full force.  I have not felt like this since I was way younger.  It is nice.

I have an appointment with my doctor on April 7th to get checked out.  We will see if I get the go ahead to start trying for a baby then!

My husband is so cute.  He was looking up on the internet yesterday about ways to increase his sperm count, what not to do when trying for a baby, etc.  He said he was embarrassed so he waited till I passed out from the pain pills and went surfing.  We had a long talk about what he found, what he already knew, what I knew, and what we were going to do once we get the green light to start trying!

Well, pain pill is kicking in.  Time to go beddy bye!

My Reversal Story: Day 4

I am doing good. I am a little sore but still feeling pretty good. The gas is what is hurting and putting pressure on my abdomen. I have been able to get up a move around quite a bit yesterday and today.

I have been really groggy and tired from the pain medication and I can definitely tell when it starts to wear off.

The surgery itself went wonderful. I have 5 cm on the right side and 5 1/2 cm on the left side. She said that from what was taken out when I had the tied and what she had to cut off to put them back together that I probably started with tubes that were about 8 cm long. 

I am so thankful that I went to this doctor. She is an amazing, caring doctor. She prayed with me and Brandon before they took me to the OR and she held my hand as they were putting me under.

The nurses at the hospital said that I was the first reversal patient to NOT ask for pain medication after getting out of the recovery room. I guess that my high pain tolerance has come in handy now! 

Thank you every one that prayed for me. They helped out!

My Reversal Story: Day 3 Part 2

Dr. Rogers did a wonderful job. I am not in any real pain. Just hurting a little, a little sore and very tired.

Dr. Rogers says that my tubes are actually pretty long for me. She estimated that before my TL that my tubes were only around 8 cm long. The doctor that did the TL did not take much from my tubes at all.

Dr. Rogers said she give my left tube and A+ and my right tube a B. The right tube was removed pretty close to the uterus, so it was a little more difficult for her to put together. The left tube she said was awesome and near perfect. I only had scar tissue on the right side and even that was minimal.

My REversal Story: Day 3 Part 3

My husband is glad that my pain is minimal and is being handled well with the Darvacet Dr. Rogers gave me. She also gave me a prescription after the surgery for Lortab in case the Darvacet wasn't working. Hubby is going to Walgreens to get that prescription filled so that I can take one before I go to bed tonight. I want to make sure that I am good and knocked out tonight while I sleep so that I don't move around much.

I still do not have a ton of pain. I have some gas pain in my mid-back, but I am taking gas meds for that and it is helping some.  

I have not been able to see my incision yet because she did not put that clear wrap on it because I am sensitive to the adhesive in bandages. I have a big gauze pad over my incision and can't change it until tomorrow afternoon. Dr. Rogers says that she made a smaller cut than she had originally thought she was going to have to make. Which is good news for me! She said the incision is around 2 1/2 inches long, which is much better than the 3 or 4 she had planned!

Dr. Rogers is an absolute miracle worker. I am so glad that I chose to go to her! For those of you on the fence about her, I can tell you I highly recommend her!!!

I am bored and can't get to sleep again. I am waiting on hubby to come back with my prescription and some ice cream. I decided I was going to eat ice cream for dinner tonight. Hubby is really going above and beyond helping me. He helped me out of my clothes earlier and into my PJs and has been helping me go to the restroom when I need to. I am truly blessed to have him!

I am glad that we are not leaving until Saturday. I think I will be feeling much better by then and it will be easier to travel!

My Reversal Story: Day 3 Part 1

I got about an hour of sleep. I am up and most of the way ready to go. Gotta brush my teeth and hair, slip on my shoes and head out the door.  

Just trying to keep myself busy and away from a cigarette.  

Can't smoke.  

Must. 

Not. 

Smoke.  

We will be leaving in about thirty minutes for the hospital.  

I am scared.  

I am thirsty.  

I have BAD heartburn and can't take anything for it. 

But I am ready. I am ready to be normal again. I am ready to have my fertility back.  

I cried like a baby last night. I told my husband that I was scared that I would not wake up. I am scared that I am going to go under and leave my husband and kids behind. Scared that this will all be for nothing. Scared that we will never conceive.

 

Scared. Period.  

I talked to my daughter and my son yesterday. My son is clueless about what is really going on, as any 5 year old should be! My daughter on the other hand is scared. I talked to their grandmother (who they are staying with while we are gone) and she said that my daughter is worried to death about me. She has called every day since we have been gone to talk to me.

Well, off to brush my teeth and hair so we can get on up outta here!

I will be back on as soon as I feel up to it to post about the rest of today. Might be a few days though.

My Reversal Story: Day 2

I had my pre-op appointment today and pre-registered at the hospital.

I LOOOOOOVE Dr. Rogers.  She is soooo sweet and personable.  She talked with us for a while, gave us a map of Jackson, and went over everything that was going to happen tomorrow during the surgery.  She even tried to help us find a Wells Fargo bank here in Jackson!  All I can say is WOW!  

I have to go in tomorrow at 5:45.  The surgery is supposed to start around 7:45 and I should be out of surgery and in recovery around 10:15 or so.  As soon as I am able to eat and drink a little and go pee, they will let me leave.  

At this time tomorrow I will be whole again!!!!!!!  WOO HOO!!!!!!!!!!!

My Reversal Story: Day 1

Well, we are safe in Jackson, TN tonight after a rather eventful and stressful day.

It all started out great.  We got on the plane this morning and got to Dallas without hitting a flock of birds (Hooray!).  I did get sick and throw up because there was so much turbulence when we were going to land.

We ate while waiting in DFW and went exploring because they have added some new stuff in there!

We went to our gate for our flight to Memphis and waited for a while.  

Well, the time for us to start boarding our plane came and there was NO ONE AT THE COUNTER!!  We had to go to another gate and ask the ticket agent what was going on and found out that our flight was CANCELED.  We looked at the prompters and it was still showing OUR FLIGHT AS ON TIME!

We got the LAST tickets for the very next flight to Memphis.

I was pissed.  We had tickets to go to Graceland reserved.  We were going to have some fun on the only free day we would have this whole week.  My husband called the Graceland ticket office (I couldn't.  At this point I was crying I was so pissed and upset) and got all but $5 of the money we spent on the tickets refunded.  We did not make it in time to make the last tour of Graceland. 

I did take some pics while we drove by, so I have something to show for going to Memphis.

We drove the hour and a half from Memphis to Jackson.  It was a great drive.  I have never seen grass as green as it is here.  And there is water EVERYWHERE!!!!!!  And the trees are huge and EVERYWHERE!!!  Such a complete opposite of New Mexico!!!!

We go tomorrow at noon (CST) for my pre-op appointment with the doctor and then have to go to the hospital to pre-register and get blood work done.

Holy hand-granades, Batman...could it be?

As some of you know, I will be having a tubal reversal surgery soon, and by soon I mean........33 days!!! As the day gets closer, I get more and more nervous and excited!  Hence, the title of this nifty, completely pointless post!

I really just wanted to say that my surgery is only 33 DAYS AWAY!!!

You may now go about your lives! ROFLMAO!!

Fears, Worries, and Excitement

As my tubal reversal surgery approaches I find myself torn by several conflicting emotions.  I fluctuate between excitement, fear and worry.

The first, and best, is excitement.  I am beyond ecstatic that in 46 days I will be a whole woman again and will be able to start trying to conceive a child with my husband.  I have felt for a while that our family is just not complete.  That there is someone missing from our home and our hearts.  I look forward to the day I pee on a stick and get a BIG FAT POSITIVE!!  I cannot wait until I can see the look on my dear husband's face when I get to tell him "We're pregnant!!!"  I cannot stand the anticipation of being able to tell my kids "You are going to have a new brother or sister (or one of each...hehehe)" and see the reaction they have because they want this almost as much as my husband and I do!  Way down on the list of excitement is being able to spend a WHOLE WEEK with my husband.  No kids.  No work.  No school. Just us.

The next feeling is worry.  Lately, this emotional response to surgery has been creeping into my life.  I am not usually the worrying type, but because there is so much riding on this surgery, I have been a worrying fool.  I worry that something will go wrong and we won't even make it to Tennessee.  I worry that we will get to Tennessee and for some reason the surgery will be canceled.  I worry that we will get to Tennessee, get into surgery and the doctor closes me up and tells me after I come to that my tubes were too damaged to repair and that I have no hope for getting them put back together.  I worry that after we get the surgery and start trying to conceive that we will be unsuccessful and I will never bear a child again.  I worry that I will get pregnant and it will be an ectopic pregnancy and have to deal with all the complications a worry that come with that.  I worry that I will be pregnant, it will not be ectopic and I will have a miscarriage.  Basically, I am worry about every what-if there is out there in regards to this procedure.

There, though not as strong as the others, is fear that creeps up on me every once in a while.  I am scared of surgery.  Flat out scared.  The only surgeries I have had are my Tubal Ligation (which by-the-way was a HUGE mistake) and getting my wisdom teeth out.  Neither of which were very invasive surgeries.  Small incisions, minimal pain.  Tubal reversal, however, is an invasive surgery.  I will have an incision anywhere from 1"-4" and will require several weeks of recovery time after.  I do not like general anesthesia and am scared of the complications that could arise from it.  I am scared that I will back out at the last minute because of my concerns and worries.  I am terrified that I will not be able to get pregnant and will dive into a deep depression because of it.  I am scared.

But despite all the bad, the good still far outweigh.  I will get this done.  I will be okay.  I will push through the fear and worry and focus on the excitement!

If you know of anyone that has had a tubal ligation (tubes tied) and now regrets it, please send them to this wonderful, informative, supportive group of ladies.  They are Fit to be Untied.

101 Reasons to NOT get your tubes tied!!!

101 Reasons NOT to Get Your Tubes Tied:

1. You don't know what post tubal syndrome is.

2. You have been told there are no after effects.

3. It doesn't protect you from AIDS so you still need to use condoms.

4. Your husband wants you to.

5. Just because you had a lot of c-sections.

6. Your Doctor suggests it.(or tells you to do it).

7. Your unsure about wanting another child.

8. You might regret it for the rest of your life.

9. Your fimbrias might be destroyed during the procedure.

10. You may never just get over it.

11. Many years later when you think you can't get pregnant, you do, and your heart is broken because you have a tubal pregnancy and lose the baby. You realized by this time the tubal was a mistake to begin with.

12. Because tying can mean anything from clipping to banding ,cutting , to cutting a piece out ,to burning.

13. Because you had complications with your last pregnancy.

14. It wont help your menstrual cycle (it can make it worse) .

15. It can cause earlier menopause.

16. A tubal can be done at anytime. DON'T do it during a c-section. There are moms that had their babies die just as the Dr. finished tying their tubes!

17. You could lose an ovary(s).

18. You could feel less of a woman.

19 .Because you are a single mom.

20. Your mom thinks its a good idea.

21. Depression is a very real side effect.

22. Doctors might say all this sadness is "just in your head" but if you didn't have the tubal, you wouldn't be worrying about it just being in your head.

23. Because you think it will enhance your sex life.

24. Because you heard its reversible.

25. Reversals are very expensive.

26. Reversals don't always work. There are many factors involved in just attempting a reversal.

27. You spend a lot of money on a reversal and it doesn't work.

28.You think you never want kids.

29.It's not natural.

30.You think you don't have enough money for another child.

31. Your friend had her tubes tied and had no problems (This does not mean you won't).

32.A study has shown that woman sterilized during the birth or immediately post partum have LESS milk for their baby!

33. Because its a fool proof means of birth control (there are others).

34. Because you have an unhappy marriage.

35. Because you might win the lottery.

36. Because all your kids could be killed in a bombing of a federal building.

37. Because you could lose a child to cancer.

38. Because your husband might have a heart attack and die at 37.

39. Because your husband is injured in the line of duty and is a vegetable forever, you meet a new man, begin a new life and want more kids.

40. You have diabetes and think it will never be under control.

41. You want menopause to come when its supposed to.

42. Some Doctors think you have worse cramps because the period blood backs up.

43. You haven't discussed it with your clergy.

44. Its against most Religious doctrines.

45. The blood supply to your ovaries can be compromised.

46. In the future you may want to give the gift of life.

47. Your insurance covers it.

48. Your insurance does not pay for birth control.

49. Your car has only room for 2 cars seats.

50. Your kids say they don't want anymore brothers or sisters.

51. People say you're selfish for wanting more kids.

52. You think it will make your more attractive to your husband (not worrying about birth control).

53. Because your over 35 and worried about chromosomal abnormalities.

54. Its not a bartering chip to get your husband to agree to have another baby.

55. Its not a bartering chip for a dr to use in order to perform an abortion.

56. Do you really want to be a sterilized woman?

57. It can RUIN your sex life.

58. Can your deal with the word sterilized?

59. Your parents were holocaust survivors.

60. You haven't discussed this tubal with a psychologist.

61. Its like giving up future babies.

62. IVF is very expensive.

63. Almost all insurance companys will not pay for IVF.

64. Almost all insurance companys will not pay for IVF after a tubal ligation.

65. Almost all insurance companys will not pay for Reversals.

66. Almost all insurance companys will not pay for any kind of infertility treatment if you have had a tubal ligation.

67. You won't have to deal with people thinking you are selfish for wanting a reversal.

68. Were you a whoops baby?

69. Were you a change of life baby?

70. Do you have trouble deciding things?

71. Have your ever regretted any decision you have made in your life?

72. Einstein was the 8th kid of his family.

73. You know an infertile couple.

74. You'll be infertile.

75. Ovulation won't mean anything anymore.

76. PMS might become much worse.

77. It might hurt big time when you ovulate.

78. You'll never be able to look at a guy and say I want to have his baby.

79. Your DO,does not share your lifestyle.

80. Its barbaric: woman are asked to get sterilized no one asks a man to have a vasectomy.

81. There is not enough coconut custard pie to make up for it.

82. The kids you have are bothering you.

83. You suffered from post partum depression with your pregnancys.

84. Your Mom might die and then you wont be able to have a baby to name after her.

85. Because you got the boy you always wanted.

86. Because you got the girl you were longing for.

87. Because you made a deal with someone (your partner).

88. You think no one will ever love you.

89. You had a stressful pregnancy.

90. It leaves a scar.

91. You always do what is expected of you.

92. In your heart you know its wrong.

93. Your doing it to make others happy.

94. You don't realize this is mutilating your body.

95. Your friends won't understand how traumatic it is.

96. Because you can't deal with the Dr. saying "Burned those puppies (the tubes). You will never be able to get a reversal."

97.Because IUDS can work well.

98. Abnormal luteal function may be responsible for the symptoms observed and may also explain the failure to conceive following successful reversal of tubal ligation.

99.Because there are less invasive ways.

100. BECAUSE LIFE IS TOO FULL OF VARIABLES TO DO SOMETHING SO PERMANENT.

101. Although some of the reasons can be turned around ...meaning get your tubes tied..please remember there REALLY IS NO MEDICAL reason to tie your tubes!!!!!

just because you might think you don't want anymore kids you don't need to tie your tubes!!!!

and if the Dr tells don't have anymore kids ...that is still not a reason to tie them!!!

Please go back and read them all again and be 100% sure you can deal with ALL these reasons (consequences) in the future.
Thank you for taking the time to read!!!
These reasons are all ones that have been told to me by woman that have had their tubes ligated.

Depressed a little

OK. today I am just a little depressed.  It all comes down to my husband and I want to have a child and can't because I had a tubaligation (tubes tied) after my youngest was born.  See I was married before and did not want anymore children with that man and did not plan on meeting the love of my life after my divorce from my first husband.  Well, long story short,I found the love of my life, Brandon, and we would like to have a child together and this is the road block we have. At this point, we do not have the money to pay for a reversal and it depresses me terribly and makes me hate my ex more and more.  I know that we will eventually get this done, but as I get older the chances of actually conceiving after the reversal goes down tremendously.  Now you can see the problem.  I need to have this done before I am thirty to optimize our chances of conception.  This want for another child only grows with time and the depression that comes with not fullfilling this also grows.