Houston, we have movement!

I was laying on my bed today after I took a shower, just relaxing a bit before getting dressed and I felt something. Something moving. Something stirring. IN MY LOWER ABDOMEN!!!!

I waited for a few hours to wait and see if I was just gassy and would pass gas.....but I DIDN'T!!!!

I'm 99% positive I felt our baby move for the first time today!!!!!!

I'm on cloud 9 right now!!

Growing belly: 10 weeks

Here is my belly shot at about 10 weeks. As you can see, the bump is really starting to pop now!

Happy Birthday.....

TO ME!!!!!!!!!! I am 29 today!

Not doing much today for my big day. I told B. that all I wanted for my birthday was to go see Alice in Wonderland and we did that on Sunday with Big J. (since his birthday is coming up on Saturday).

I don't need fancy gifts, I have this:

And this:
What more do I need?!?!?

First OB visit

I had my first regular OB appointment today and it was pretty uneventful. They just did a physical, did blood tests and tried to hear baby's heartbeat. My midwife did move my due date to October 10th.....10-10-10!! She moved it based on the ultrasound I had a while back, since that was the due date it said!

We were not able to hear the baby's heartbeat this time, but that was because of the doppler they use. My midwife said that they usually can't hear a heartbeat with that until between 10 and 11 weeks. Well, I'm 9 weeks, so it was no biggie. We heard it before and I'm confident that things are still going good.

I did gain one pound since my last visit a month ago. I think that is good, especially since the baby bump is getting bigger and bigger!

They asked if we wanted the testing for down's syndrome or cystic fibrosis and we declined those tests. It will not change anything and we will not terminate if those conditions exist. And really, they are not necessary tests. We will take whatever God gives us happily! Even a child with disabilities or health issues.

When it rains, it pours

Well, if you read my last post, you know that I'm having to deal with ex drama right now. Not fun at all.

And now on top of all of that, it looks like Brilliant B. is getting laid off from his job. Work is EXTREMELY slow lately and right now, they don't even have enough work for one body man, let alone 3. He is still talking to the bosses (who happen to be his step-mom and grandfather) to see what can be worked out, but it really looks like he will be laid off. (in my opinion, I think the other two body men should be laid off. Neither of them have a baby on the way and children at home.) We will see what happens. The only upside would be that B. would be able to draw unemployment, meaning at least some income.

Just what we need. More rain.

I don't need this stress right now. Not at all.

Ranting Mad

So, this is the deal, my ex has been calling EVERY DAY to talk to the kids. Normally this would not bug me, but the kids are not always available to talk, and I'm not always at home with the kids (I only have a cell...no home phone and won't give him my husband's cell number). I have class 2 nights a week and on those days I usually only get to say hi and bye to the kids on my way out the door.

Tonight, I tell him that the kids will not be available to talk every day and that it is inconvenient for him to call repeatedly on the days he KNOWS I'm in class. So the asshole hangs up on me. So I text him and say that if he wants to be more involved with the kids' life, then he knows what he needs to do (clean up and take his drug tests to get his visitation back...he has no visitation now because he refuses to do the tests).

He goes into this long rant, cussing me out, telling me that he's going to take it back to court and get everything changed and that he'll probably end up with the kids because I'm not following the order and allowing him daily phone calls at 7 pm. First off, our order says he is allowed REASONABLE telephone calls....not daily phone calls at 7 pm (that was the temporary order almost 3 years ago, we now have a permanent order that is different). And I do allow him to talk to the kids, when they are available. It's not like I don't let him talk to them. I never have refused to let them talk to him.

Second, I have followed the court papers to the letter, while he has refused to follow them the entire time we've been divorced. We have been divorced for almost 5 years now and he has not once followed the judge-approved court order.

I really do not want to go back to court, because frankly I've done nothing wrong. And I don't want to spend MORE money on a lawyer because he gets pissed he didn't get his way. I've already spent over $15,000 on this crap. I know that if we go back to court, the judge will chew him out and throw the case out, but that is just more stress on me and more money that we just don't have right now.

Will he ever grow up and realize that he is WAY in the wrong here? Or do I have to keep dealing with this shit for another 12 years (12 years because it is 12 years until Little J. turns 18....AND 12 years until I can tell the ex where I would like him to go)?