Wednesday, March 11, 2009

Writer's Workshop: I can do it now!!!!

It's that time again!  Writer's Workshop from Mama Kat over at Mama's Losin' It .  Here they are:
The Prompts:
1.) Discuss an intense game of Pictionary that you spent most of Saturday night arguing with your family about, only to log in to your email account two days later to find 35 emails between said family regarding aformentioned game and rules.

2.) Tell about a time you hurt somebody that still bothers you to this day.
3.) The one that got away....spill it.
4.) What inspired you? Write about a time when you were impassioned to write.
5.) What happened in the last year? Write about something you can do now that you couldn't do a year ago. 
6.) Write about the event that was the end of your childhood

Well, I decided to do #5 because I cannot think of anything to do for the rest.  Go figure!

Now this is supposed to be something I can do now that I could not do a year ago, it will be, but I have to add in something I will be able to do in a month because of something I have been able to do in the past year.  Do you understand what I'm saying?  Ok, on to the post.

For those of you that do not know my situation, I will give you a little background info so that you can understand the rest with ease!

It all started about 5 1/2 years ago when I made the decision that I was going to have my tubes tied after I gave birth to my youngest child (with whom I was pregnant with at the time).  I knew at that time I did not want to have more children and especially not with my husband at the time (who, by the way, is now my ex-husband).  And if you have read any previous posts, you can understand why I would not want to!  So, the day after my son was born, November 13, 2003, I went into surgery and came out a sterilized 22 year old woman.  At that time, I was ok with my choice.  I did not have to worry about another oops baby and another mouth to feed.  It was what I HAD to do at the time.  

Little did I know what I had done to myself.  I had no idea at the time I had this *horrible* procedure done that it would completely mess up my body.  I did not know that my periods would double in time and rate of flow.  I had no idea that I would go through bouts of depression for no reason at all.  I had no idea that it would make my libido dive down to almost non-existent.  

I had no idea that I would end up divorced from my husband and end up finding the absolute LOVE of my life.  I had no clue that I would want to have another child with this wonderful man.

Ok, well, that is just a little bit of my background so that what is coming will make more sense now!

Well, in the past year I have been doing TONS of research into options so that my husband and I can have a child together.  

It has been a LONG road and in November I finally found some answers and some options.  I found a wonderful support group for women JUST LIKE ME! Fit To Be Untied is an online support group for women with sterilization regret!  I found so much information, support and understanding! 

Thanks to the ladies at FTBU I found the doctor that will be putting my tubes back together and making me a WHOLE WOMAN again!  

I would have not been able to say that a year ago.  A year ago, my husband and I were just TALKING about how nice it would be to be able to have a baby.

This year, we are talking about the surgery that is in two weeks to fix me.  

This year we are talking about trying to conceive a baby NEXT MONTH!!

This year I will be a whole woman and able to have a child with the love of my life.

This year my prayers were heard and answered!  

This year has been a great year!



***If you are thinking of having your tubes tied, please read  this first.   Don't make the same mistake I did.  Be informed***

6 comments:

  1. I am so glad you are getting the chance to have a child with your husband. I hope it all works out well. Also, I have had a hysterectomy but I am still a whole woman.

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  2. OH, BTW, I wasn't being snide or bitchy, just letting you know that not every woman that can no longer have children feels less than whole. I am really happy that you are getting a second chance.

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  3. I am thrilled for you. I hope it all goes as planned. I too had my tubes tied but at 35 after my 3rd C-section. It is so ironic that you came to my site today - I have been posting about my tube tying experience. You see, I had my tubes clipped and 3 months later got pregnant. This week I went in for an emergency hysterectomy due to the baby having implanted into my C-section scar, re-opening the incision and beginning to grow into my abdomen.
    I am now trying to get the word out about the inefficiency of tubals. I could have died. My situation is rare but it can be devastating. I blogged about it all if you are interested.
    Thanks for stopping by my blog!

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  4. Wow! Good luck with your procedure and your pregnancy hopes!

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  5. Wow!! What an amazing story...I had no idea getting your tubes tied could cause all that! I'll be prayiing that you get your baby!!! Exciting!

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  6. What a story. I'm so glad you were able to find a way to reverse this. It is amazing how at difficult times, you cannot see what might be coming down the road -- like happiness, a good man, a reason to want to have another child. I'm wishing you the best and I hope everything works out!!!!

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