Thursday, May 21, 2009

Blah day

Have you ever just had one of those days that you wish would have never happened?

Today was one of those days.  

I had my annual "womanly" exam, which in itself is not a pleasant experience.  What made this bad was what went on AFTER I was done being poked and generally made uncomfortable.

After the exam, I went into my midwife's office and talked with her about the importance of taking my prenatal vitamins since I am trying to get pregnant (which I am doing DAILY), laying off the sodas (which I will start when I get 2 lines), and getting in for an ultrasound at 5-6 weeks (when I get a positive test).  Then she looks at my chart goes down to the weight section, gets out this little chart, looks up my BMI and proceeds to tell me that I am overweight.  

WTF???

I was under the impression from many other docs that my "healthy", "ideal" weight for my height of 5'  10 1/2" is between 165-170 pounds.  I am currently at 180 according to the scale at the doctor's office.  

Now since when is 10 pounds over "ideal" weight considered "overweight"???

Can someone tell me?

No.  I didn't think so.

AND I have lost 15 pounds in the last 6 months and am actually ok with my weight at this current moment. 

I mean, come on, I'm trying to get pregnant here.  You know....where the goal is to GAIN weight.  

That was just a major blow to my self-esteem.  I did not consider myself "overweight".  I had some pounds that ideally I would have liked to shed, but I wasn't obsessed with losing the last 10 stubborn pounds.

Hubby is going to have to do some major boosting of my self-esteem today.  But he is usually pretty damn good at doing that!  He always makes me feel beautiful!

This is what I feel like:  

Pulling out my hair! Pictures, Images and Photos

6 comments:

  1. Oh I so relate to this. Nothing like your annual womanly exam to make you feel awful and exposed and icky ... and I think that nurse should just keep her mouth shut!!!!

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  2. Icky...that was just not even called for. Did she have an axe to grind today or what? You are beautiful (and the same height as me, by the way) and shouldn't let the crotchety old midwife ruin your day. I know how easily that can happen though. Be proud of yourself for all you've accomplished and leave it at that!

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  3. MckMama skipped the Not Me's this week, but you can still play along with Toot Your Horn Tuesday! Come on by, and boost your self esteem!!
    www.sillylittlesparrow.com

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  4. Stopping by from Mama Kat's. I hate the midwife for you. Just kidding. But I do know how that plummets your self esteem and I really despise how we are all judged on our weight based on the exact same piece of paper with some numbers thrown on it that a board of people came up with. Who are they to decide exactly how much everyone should weigh? Hello, we are not cookie cutter people! Good luck on getting pregnant!

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  5. Hi there. New here but had to comment!
    Do yourself a favour a google ideal weight for your age and height. You will see the opinions are ALL over the map! (I'm just over 5 9 and have done this recently...I was amazed) I think it's more important that we feel good about ourselves. Those darn scales mock us!

    You have a really cute blog here!

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